GutFuck?

It feels like I’m letting everyone down, like I’m a sucky friend and can’t be there for people.

One of my friends is moving soon and I really, really enjoy his company, he brings out the rascal in me and we have so much fun. He’s moving quite far… well… not THAT far. But being broke students we haven’t got the money to see each other that often. Today he asked me to come over to his place (He’s got social phobia so he rarely leaves alone)

But I have chronic fatigue syndrome and fibromyalgia, I’m so fucking tired all the time that I can barely walk my dog, my apartment is falling to bits and I’m too tired to even swipe the floors.

I know it’s not my fault, but I feel I’ve let everyone down and that I’m the one doing everything wrong.
And it makes me so damn sad I don’t know what to do. 

Thanks for reading…

Hey, at least I’m honest…

I’m sitting here twitching out of stress and I can’t even see clearly. I’m so desperate to make things right that I’ve only gone down deeper in this hell hole… 

Why am I doing this? Why the fuck am I doing this to myself?

(I’m so disgusting…) 

I have mixed feelings about this.

Number one, yes, I will start with number one, number ONE on my list… Brace yourselves. Number one is… : NUTELLA. 
That’s right bitches, I think Nutella is disgusting, dry, pale and yucky, it’s not good with anything, not peanut butter, no bread, no crackers, no pancakes, NOTHING. 

Number two: 

Mac&Cheese. 

Cheese at all, actually, There are some very mild cheese that I can eat, otherwise, no, get that shit away from me.

3.Doctor Who. Yeah, I don’t like it, nope, I don’t like it at all. Overrated, if you ask me.

4.And Sherlock Holmes, fun with the gay moments, but it’s nothing I would watch if I didn’t have to (“Have to” in this case means: Being tied to a chair with my eyes pried open facing a screen with non-stop sherlock holmes playing).

5.That game, what’s it called? Something with… ehhh… Mass effect? Yeah, that game. I don’t like that.

1.But number one really is Nutella, I’d rather eat snails (as long as they’re properly prepared, yum)… 

6.Peanut butter jelly? YUCK! 

7.KFC? EUUUUWWWW!!!!

8.McDonalds or any fast food restaurant? FUCK NO, YUCK, ALL OF IT. The ONLY good thing in McDonalds is the kiddie section with the ball pool. End of discussion.

0.Something that I DO like though, is to complain about things I dislike, which is pretty much everything…