This is the friendly neighborhood cat. She’s the sweetest kitty I have ever met. Not only is she freakishly adorable, she’s social and affectionate. I go to the district hospital once every week, and psychiatrist once as well, and the road is the same. Just about every time, this little lady will be there, run up to me and start purring like crazy. I can lift her up and pet her, walk with her for a while and put her down when the road splits, then she goes back to her spot and does the same for the next person.
Deliberately choosing those who look sad. And everyone who’s been walking down that road will have a huge smile on their lips.

I don’t know who owns her but she’s very well fed, groomed and taken care of, so even during those rainy days, she has somewhere to retreat.

Today she came visiting our house just after we had installed the stairs to the porch, so she could actually get up. She was about to strut into the apartment but since I have seven birds, a huge pizza stood ready on the table, and mom is allergic, I sat down on the stairs to cuddle with the little miss instead. 
She immediately started stroking around me and eventually climbed up and sat in my lap, leaning against me and kissing me on the chin. After quite a crappy day, this was awesome and I’m absolutely in love with her, I wish she was mine.

I’ve seen her go in to the neighbors house from time to time, playing with their dog, and she even visits the student corridors on the other side of the street. 

She goes wherever there is some love to be found, and some to be needed. Then when it get’s cold, I like to imagine that she cuddles up on a warm sofa with her owner, getting a nice belly rub and some nice kitty treats.

All this talk of how “Selfish” Suicide is.

I’ve had friends call my father selfish, I’ve had strangers do it, I’ve had teachers do it.

What my father did was the LEAST selfish thing in the world.

Others may not have had the same reason, but suicide still ISN’T selfish.

Not a single day went by where dad didn’t kill us either in his sleeping dreams or in his waken psychosis. Not a Single Day.
Imagine that.
Killing everyone you love and live for, EVERY day.

You know why he killed himself?

To protect us. (And this is confirmed in his smudged suicide note)

He was so afraid of his nightmares becoming reality that he decided to end his life so that he would not end ours, or ever hurt us again.

Besides, he lived in this nightmare, killing us all the time. And he couldn’t stand it anymore.

What my father did, even if it hurt a lot of people, was the most selfless act I have ever heard of.
If anyone wants to debate about it, feel free to step up to me face to face so I can beat you to a bloody pulp on the ground and piss on your corpse. 

Sasha! My latest Java Rice finch, he’s meant to be a friend to Noki since she’s so lonely, and they seem mighty interested in each other… ;D

Sasha! My latest Java Rice finch, he’s meant to be a friend to Noki since she’s so lonely, and they seem mighty interested in each other… ;D

Best Christmas EVER.

I’m serious… I’ve never been so happy. Or well, once, when I was eight and we were going to a circus, then I cried happy tears because I had always wanted to go to one but we could never afford. Sadly, there were no tigers, bears or elephants there… just kittens, dogs and a parrot… And a guy falling off a trampoline.

Anyways, this time, I also cried happy tears. Why?

Because I received the best gift ever.

And this will sound SOOOOOOOOO Cheezy! 

I saw my mom happy, really, genuinely happy, and I haven’t seen her like that for a while. 

She was so happy, the man she loves, her two children, gathered by the table for once. ONCE. Me and my brother are almost never seen in the same room, let alone sitting by the same table… It was years ago that happened (not even last Christmas)

And those of you who have been with me for a little longer, you know how much my mom means to me, and how much I love her and adore her for everything she has done, hasn’t done, for everything she is and isn’t. She is an AMAZING woman and I want her nothing but the best things in the world.

She was so happy. So incredibly happy. 

And it almost made me cry… I still makes my eyes tear up. Because thinking of her, and all the downs she’s been through, seeing her happy really filled my heart.

She is so strong and so powerful.

I love her so much, she’s really a role-model, someone to REALLY look up to.

Yeah… Just wanted to tell you that EVERYONE in my family is HAPPY today! :D

What I got:

Turtle neck shirt (YESS!!!)

Hoodie (YEAAAHHH!!!!)

Lamb wool shirt. (;_; <3)

Vacuum cleaner. (Because I wanted one, yes… now I won’t have to buy one for when I move! :D)

A BEAUTIFUL hand painted cup and plate, I’ll post a photo tomorrow.

Another cup thing…

Candy from five different people.

Eh… soap… and deodorant… (I’m not… NOT taking it as a hint… Okay, I am… but hey, now I won’t have to buy shampoo and stuff for another month! YEAH!)

A beautiful bracelet from mom… will post picture tomorrow…

A Pyjamas.

A Painting from Julian <3

Aaaaaaaaand a teddy bear from Julian.

Oh, and a little money…

(I don’t know what different countries do, but in Sweden it’s kind of a tradition to tell people what you got for Christmas or your birthday, or any celebration that contains gifts. Because we are curious fucks who are afraid to ask something more than two times. I’m not bragging, just telling, because that’s what I’m used to do. Just wanted to make our possible cultural difference sure for you guys.)